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Amen

February 1, 2016 by Carol Vanderford 1 Comment

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Sometimes…
Sometimes I just don’t want to be
The gracious woman
Anymore.

I want to be
A tantrum-ing
Kicking
Arm-flailing
Screaming
Conniption-fitting
Child.

Sometimes
I weary of
Arm-patting
Hand=holding
Tissue-issuing
Hugging.

Alright…
Once again
I guess I’m supposed
To step aside
To let you move
To where you
Need to be.

But this time…
This time
I will be
Noisy
About it.

I will knock over
The planter
Leap on the table
Strip off my clothes
Hold my breath
Stomp through the hall
Cuss
And spit
And yell
To high heaven.

Because sometimes…
Sometimes
That’s the purest
Prayer.

Filed Under: Poetry, ULE

About Carol Vanderford

Carol lives in Cannon Beach enjoying semi-retirement, hiking, and returning to her early loves - writing and surfing. Encouraged by Michael Burgess to follow her heart, she writes poetry and essays at her blog, unRavel.ing, while also privately exploring fiction. In her days before raising children, completing her BA and tackling grad school, she wrote human interest stories for the New Jersey Herald, inspirational radio scripts, and periodical articles.

Comments

  1. Watt Childress says

    February 16, 2016 at 8:26 am

    Amen, indeed! To commune with greater being we must express our grief in earnest. Niceties are superficial when they stifle lamentation.

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